I really got to work harder on my trumpet playing skill. I have to. I have to. I HAVE TO! I hate the fact that I suck at playing the trumpet. i really really love playing it but I have to face it. I SUCK at it. I have to work harder. From today onwards, I swear that I will practice my trumpet more often and not pon band at all. I will even practice everyday during the holidays just so that I can get my tounging correct. I will work on my horrible tone and learn to be more confident and help CSB get GOLD WITH HONOURS for SYF next year. I cannot be the one that pulls down the section, the band. I will work really really hard. I don't want to be promoted to second or even first because I know that I'm not ready and I'm not fit for it. I suck so badly at it so why should I be promoted?! I will only accept the promotion only when I feel that I'm ready to be promoted. And right now, I'm not even close to even getting the basics correct. My tounging is horrible, I can't even follow the dynamics and I can't even get the basic rhythming correct so why should I be promoted?! So I will work hard and research and practice hard.

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